Again I stand bare foot on the cold floor chilled by the soft pre-winter winds....Every night I lock my room's door & quietly stand in the balcony staring the night sky though can't see many stars due to the dam city lights..... still just to make a wish I somehow manage to look for a star....I close my eye & after humming some chants I make a wish & slowly open my eye to catch a last glimpse of the star.... Brrr it sure is cold today but something makes it more chilly...no no it's not the poor wind.... it's the feeling of being betrayed, being not wanted etc etc.... Pain now plays a crucial part in my life....Yes you heard it correctly. ... PAIN ....A feeling which nobody wants to feel ever, but for me it has been haunting since quite a long time....Everyday the thing which act as a witness of my misery & unstable state of mind.... which is my pillow...... Standing in the balcony I remember the promises made by the people claiming to be with you forever are now nowhere to be seen.... Even if I tried to make an attempt they just preach again with some scholastic quotes again making a fake promise to return back but I know how patiently I waited for things come true....Someday ago one of them asked "Are you still single ?" I was like obviously I am.... I have been so unfortunate to have a friend & on top of that getting a mate to mingle is like adding fuel to the fire.... but with a fake smile I delivered a reply , I said "Not that fortunate " ...... I know you must have heard & felt this numerous times but still I would say....Whenever I feel sad & if someone comes & asks Are u ok ? Although I will say "Yes, m perfectly fine" & that too with a fake smile I will still wish for the other person to look into my eyes , grab my shoulder & say "No You are not &I won't leave until you reveal the truth" ......
Anyways months passed, years passed I am still standing the place where they left me....tears have dried, hopes have died....The place where it used to be spring has been overtaken by the cold harsh weather.....The wind whispers, they say "You are all by yourself, the promises will remain unfulfilled, it was never meant for you" Accepting these facts I close my eyes, a tear trickles down & get merged with the darkness where I dwell.....
Anyways months passed, years passed I am still standing the place where they left me....tears have dried, hopes have died....The place where it used to be spring has been overtaken by the cold harsh weather.....The wind whispers, they say "You are all by yourself, the promises will remain unfulfilled, it was never meant for you" Accepting these facts I close my eyes, a tear trickles down & get merged with the darkness where I dwell.....
