The unfortunate MOTHER

Again the eyes were wet today. No matter how much she tries to stop herself not to think about the past but still she breaks down & cry her heart out in silence. The word "Mother" can be defined & quoted in infinite ways. For a woman the stage of Motherhood is very crucial & enchanting. For nine months she hold a life within her & with bone breaking pain she gives birth to her child. The nine months time is crucial for the mother. She has to eat healthy, carry the weight all over & has to stay positive. And all these things are arranged by the father who takes care of the mother & fulfills the promises & the vows which he took on the wedding day. But life is not easy for a woman who has no one in her life, who has been abandoned & moreover has lost her baby during an accident while she was 4 months pregnant. All hopes & dreams came crashing through when Roxy was informed that her baby is no more. She was shattered. She tries to feel the baby bump which is not their anymore. Tears started trickling down from her eyes. When she was discharged from the hospital she straight away went to the church & with tears in her eyes she started arguing with the Lord. " I never complained when I was deprived of love from my parents, I never complained when my friends betrayed me, I never complained when my marriage broke, But today I need an explanation why you took away my baby? You knew that to be a mother was the only good news I ever had in my life but still you didn't felt sorry for me & decided to take away my happiness. I wanted to feel the soft heart beat of my baby, I wanted my baby to hold my hand through it's little fingers. I wanted to see my baby taking it's first step & referring me as Mommy. I wanted to feel the joy of giving birth. But that pain has been substituted by some other pain which can never be healed."  saying this she left the church & from that day onwards Roxy's life changed. She was not the same person again. Just like a robot she managed her  things & feelings. But deep inside she still is tender & caring. She loves going to the park, not because she loves the bright beautiful day, it's because of the kids & family coming there. She loves to see babies been carried by their parents, some of the toddlers are playing with their parents & are throwing their tantrums. She places herself on the park bench & tries to get a glimpse of the toddlers around. She hids her eyes with big sun-glasses so that no one notices the tears once she gets nostalgic. After an hour she leaves the park & visits the church where she speaks to her Lord, the only companion whom she had all through her life & prays for a bright future for all the kids out there.