UNSPOKEN WORDS

It was near evening time when I went to the terrace to water the flower pots. I went to the terrace with my coffee mug & opened the gate. After watering the flower pots I decided to relax & enjoy the coffee. The winter evenings are a bit soothing for me. And whenever I am alone I get drowned in my thoughts & get nostalgic. Sometimes I do wish that someone can get to know what I want to convey or why I am acting so strange ? Some people have the tendency to judge others by their looks, verbal speech, behavior etc. No matter how good you do for them they will still be ungrateful. There has been many instances in my life where I was like that's it I am not going to be nice to them & will take revenge but the very next moment I put on the radio & listens to a song which makes me remember the happy old times just flushes the anger away & the very next moment I am weeping like a toddler. One does feels low when things  are not in your favor, when people creates a false perception on their mind against you, when you have thousands of contacts in your phone-book but still no one calls or text to know whether you are alive or not. Yes, I have been through various instances of life where I have been shattered, exploited, betrayed & crushed. I had some people who promised to be in my happy & sad moments but to be honest I fail to remember any of them who fulfilled their promises. Once I had a face to face conversation with them they said that you are too emotional & sometimes you yourself don't take the first step to communicate. Indeed I was shocked. I was like if I don't go around mocking people, if I don't go to disco & party like them that doesn't mean I don't like to be with you. I never asked you to change for me then why do I need to follow the clauses to be you "FRIEND". When you wanted your needs to be fulfilled I did my best but when I just needed a shoulder to cry why did you ran away ? It's been quite some time sine I have been in touch with anyone. Rarely I go one the social site & upload any status. But still till date I remember each &

every individual in my prayer. I pray for their well-being, those who betrayed me I pray to the Lord to make them wise. with a deep breath I try to come out of the nostalgic feeling & try to get a glimpse of the street from my terrace. Lods of people roaming around. I see a group of people chatting, laughing, sharing hi5 to each other  in a cafe coffee shop. It brings a light smile on my face & suddenly a tear trickles down from my left eye. I turned my face away & looked up at the evening where the North star was visible now. It was the only star visible at that point of time but later on it will be accompanied with the other twinkles as the night will grow on. With the same feeling & hope I close my eyes & wish that someday there will be good times & there will be an individual whom you don't have to explain anything, that person will be able to acknowledge your pain & sorrows through your eyes itself. strange but true ....