The Chase

After biding goodbye to her friend she sunk back in the chair with a deep breath. She was staring at the empty blue sky. The hustle & bustle of the cafe didn't bothered her. She likes to live in solitude, though she did tried to open up with few of her colleagues & school friends but turns out it was a bad idea. Each time she thought she has find the perfect person to share her thought, turns out they used to mock her & pretended to empathise.

She gave everything to keep people happy & was there to support them emotionally. The only thing she desired was to receive the same amount of affection. Gradually she started to realise she was just meant to suffer the denials from her "loved ones". 

Today at the cafe she met her old colleague. At first her colleague was chatting with his own group, later when he realised she was about to leave, he dropped in to say hello. She was delighted to see her mate after a long time but later when she saw some of her other "friends" sitting in that group trying to hide themselves away from her sight, her smile disappeared for a second. The people whom she used to introduced as her loved ones to others denied to even pass a smile. She pretended as if she never saw them & started chatting with her mate. He stated due to his busy schedule he was not able to prioritise things & failed to keep in touch with her. With a smile on her face she accepted his facts & requested him to be in touch. By that time, the group was about to leave. She grabbed the book & pretended she was reading. She was merged in her own thoughts. 

That day she realised what a fool she was wasting her time for people who never appreciated her presence & only bothered to speak to her till she was needed. She was sick & tired of chasing people. She was tired to chase for the affection she was expecting from the wrong people.

All these years the imaginary expectations she had from the wrong sets of people was going to end. She realised that even if you sell your soul for someone you still will be disappointed. 

People who really care & love someone will always schedule theit time for you. For them the priority will be you no matter what the situation is. So gather yourself & stop chasing for things which are ungrateful & demonic. Don't let them suck out your positivity. Pray for everyone but never commit yourself with an imaginary relation. At the right time the right thing will happen & the right person will chase you for your love.

Fate

With the tears in her eyes she silently stood there on the threshold watching the sun go down the hill. The sky was getting dark but still one or two stars were twinkling with all their might to remove the darkness. She checked her phone again by going through the chat history. It was like a daily ritual for her to check her phone every now & then hoping to feel the warmth of love & care she has been missing since a decade.

The amount of time she has stayed late just for the sake of  getting a revert from her loved ones which ofcourse was in vain, started to reflect in form of bags developing under her eyes. Due to such behaviors she was termed as a lunatic, whore & other unpleasant adjectives coined by her "loved" ones.

Most of her contacts in her contact lists were so self-centered that not a single hello was received as a chat initiated by others.

Today she was mocked by some of the known faces who stated that people like her suffer, get exploited  & are not destined to have anyone in their life. Though she was shattered to hear such heart wrenching curses but with a smile on her face she relied "People like me don't even have a destiny ". 

Attachment or Desire

It's been along time since I have posted a new post. It's just I get drowned in the thoughts so much that I almost used to go to sleep :p Thinking about the same thing over & over again will just exhaust you mentally & physically.

Today after a deep thinking & after going through some good articles I was able to conclude a thing. That thing is whenever we like someone or something we leave a part of us in that thing. That's the reason you keep on thinking about it. And as that old saying goes, Let the thing go free, if it comes back it's yours ( Though someone may say nobody wanted it that's why it came back.....just kidding) 

I have experienced the same in  my life. And the worst part is no matter how much you are surrounded by the crowd, the person whom you barely know will be able to get the clue that something is wrong.

As for now I won't preach much as now I am all calmed down as I was having my favorite snack :p I will be back some other day with a new experience to share with all of you, till then keep smiling :)